goodbyes&goodtimes

“While looking for the right one; we had fun with the wrong one ( or ones )…”

Just woke up at the right side of the bed! Yeah! And I just realized over coffee that hey I’m slowly learning! ( or atleast I think so ) Just this week I made out with someone I have known only in the cyber world. And to be honest, there’s no next time since I really hated myself having made out with him. Like duh! He’s not just the one. And I’m still trying to work out with Alex. ( he was my first, at least serious relationship ) but going back, I just realized that goodbyes are for good times! Well I mean, as the quote above shouts; while looking for the right one; we had fun with the wrong one ( or ones ). Oh diba malupit! Indeed, finally it’s clearer to me that I would only utter goodbyes to those people in my life that ought to be just “for fun”. It’s so mean, I know, but ‘tis the way we’re all gonna be better off.

I just remembered Blair, ( Gossip Girls) who said she wants to leave behind high school and so do I. Making out’s a thing of the past, just a by product of curiosity, rebellion, and a little taste of innocent slash wild fun, which are all but so highschoolish. I know I might seem and sound immature, but the past few weeks been molding me into something that’s quite more “me.” I do not know what to call it, but ‘tis like you wake up one day and realized certain things and it’s as if all through your life you’ve been so into it, although it’s practically a spur of the moment. ( am I making a point here? )

My bottom line, I finally know what I want; I finally have a glimpse of who really I am and what and who I have. ‘Tis like you are born again and bathe with self respect and love more than anything.

I guess, I’m just a little too not over that fact that things in my life are quite turning the way I want them to be. I finally ( I think ) have my official college friends, and they love for who I am as much I do them; and finally I think we’re finally settling down at one place ( at last my brother’s finally made up his mind to stay really to stay at a house we could for sometime call our home ); another is that lately I feel like I am being so trusted more than ever since I breathe, my gkeadz family and my family trust me with lots of things now ( and I love that, really )

So I guess; this is it, waking up at the right side the bed is sOOO FUN!