i wanna quit smoking...

I have a confession to make…

I smoke.

Many of my acolytes don’t know of this. I was able to keep such vice from their knowledge quite a long time now. Well, two things for sure; first, I really am good at keeping things I want to keep and second indeed, still am afraid that they might misjudge me; that I was able to hide this vice. I have to admit, at first what I do seems cool and is very “my age” but now it seems nothing but mere stupidity.

It was around sixth grade when I had my first try. But for the record, it was just a try, an attempt ( but the bottom line, I had a taste ) It was in high school when I was able to consume an entire stick, then it was followed by two more, three, and ended up with pack.

What do I say? All the rest were history.
Smoker, I officially became; and still am…

The pleasure of the vice runs into my veins…
I crave for it most of the time, and each time I do, I do it in the hide…
Then there is satisfaction, pleasure in being someone not ordinary…
Pleasure.


Temptations come, I succumb… and the trend goes …
Pleasure, Pleasure…
Pleasure.

But despite such gratification, in every kiss and blow; there is guilt.
With the smoke, wasted time flies.
Then I’ll think…

Is it worth it?
Is it worth all the risk?

Then I’ll think…
Temptations come, I’ll think…
I’ll resist… but then, succumbs…
and the trend lives on…

I wanna quit…
Quit! Quit! I thought of that many times ago…
But it did not work, never did…

Until this boring, superdupersonicmegatronic teacher of mine said…
To really quit ( he was referring not about my smoking )is to…
To QUIT FROM something To QUIT FOR someone.
True, the bulb of the great “AHA!” went blinking in my head…

And now…
Here I am…
At the verge of quitting from smoking to quit for…
MYSELF!

I’ve realized that I have to do this for me, I, MyseLf!
Aside from the reason that am really getting sick of this f*cking vice,
am also getting sick of the guilt, of the wasted time…

I know that the road is gonna be tough,
That’s why am begging…
Help me please…

Help me quit.
I’ll appreciate advices and most of all I’ll appreciate it more if you keep this amongst us…
PLEASE…

I’m gonna quit!
I’m gonna hate kissing and blowing…
I’m gonna QUIT!


QUIT, QUIT, QUIt!

*PS. I’ll need encouragements, comments are gonna be honoured… soMUCH!
And since u’ve learned my secret… let’s keep it between us alone… tnx!